June 28, 2009 I had the weirdest dream ever and I woke up many times in between but it kept continuing. Maybe that explains why I'm awake now and lin is still fast asleep. LOL.
-nIx- @ [[2:20 PM]]
June 27, 2009 I alway want to help others improve, especially those I care for ; but how much difference can a little girl make?
-nIx- @ [[8:23 AM]]
June 26, 2009 Maybe you don't care anymore but a little conscience of mine tells me I should still be looking out for you ; just because my gut feeling tells me something's wrong.
-nIx- @ [[11:58 PM]]
I wish people would invent a drug that would make people emotionally numb to everything.
One moment I'm smiling like a mad idiot thinking about egg tarts and the very next moment I've feeling so down & not as enthusiastic about egg tarts anymore.
-nIx- @ [[2:16 PM]]
June 24, 2009 Been doing a lot of reminiscing, I don't know what to say or feel.
I guess in a way, I still treasure every moment and everything that happened while it lasted.
-nIx- @ [[11:23 PM]]
June 22, 2009 I don't dare to close my eyes and fall asleep because the moment I wake up I realised I'm still living in the nightmare I can't seem to get out of.
-nIx- @ [[12:18 AM]]
June 21, 2009 I was afraid I'd get insomnia again. I hate that feeling so I conquered it before I went to bath. After that I was walking pretty wavy, straight to sleep!
I think I'm fine now.He says I'm half in love. I have a feeling what's happening now is just the same as to how I lost my world.
-nIx- @ [[10:19 PM]]
June 20, 2009 Funny how a photograph Can take you back in time To places and embraces That you thought you'd left behind They're trying to remind you That you're not the only one That no one is an island When all is said and one
If you feel lost and on your own And far from home You're never alon, you know Just think of your friends
The ones who care They all will be waiting there with love to share And your heart will lead you home
-nIx- @ [[2:22 PM]]
June 19, 2009 Sometimes the obvious just stares piercingly into your eyes, yet we choose to ignore it until we are given the green light to move on ; a knife that stabs home, from the very person you love the most.
Right now, the very first step is to move on.
What would you do if you lost the person you grew to love for the last 6years of your life?
What would you do if the person meant the universe to you?
What would you do if your life is not as perfect anymore?
I got 10days to shake myself awake before I have to go back for more, if it ever works.
-nIx- @ [[11:32 PM]]
June 18, 2009 Came home to a slightly chao ta smelling house & realised that dad did some cooking. I guess he didn't put enough water or wasn't paying attention to the fire so the rice got burnt. But it's a first time. I really love guys who can cook, from scratch!
-nIx- @ [[10:58 PM]]
Trip to the doctor this morning costed me $$$$.
Doc : "I don't want you to come down too much next time because of this ah."
I'll be fine. I just got overwhelmed last night.
-nIx- @ [[10:34 PM]]
June 17, 2009
; procrastination
Because there's so many things pulling me back from wanting to move on.
I told my mum I signed up for a facial package and she's been nagging at me that I paid too much. LOL.
Today was my first time walking into LV and I don't really understand why people want to buy such overpriced items. Well, some are really nice but I can't tell fakes from genuine stuff so it doesn't matter anyway.
-nIx- @ [[11:10 PM]]
June 16, 2009 Will I be able to stay strong and accept anything that comes my way or is everything I've been doing just a form of escapism from reality?
-nIx- @ [[10:14 PM]]
I've got almost everything in the world that I want. What I want most, I used to have but now its lost.. forever? Sad.. I thought I was okay and yet thinking about it just makes me cry...
-nIx- @ [[12:03 AM]]
June 13, 2009 ONE WHOLE WEEK OF OT!!!!
I survived! :D
-nIx- @ [[1:06 AM]]
June 11, 2009 Does it really take a getaway from the hustle and bustle (aka stressful) life before one starts to calm down and reflect on their priorities in life?
-nIx- @ [[12:21 AM]]
June 08, 2009 Something to make your mouth really water. I really mean water so you have to click on the water to make your mouth water. :D
I am too excited to sleep LOL. And to you : I think you really owe me an apology for putting me through so much. I'm doing fine now although I hoped and wish things would have taken a better twist after I returned from my trip. I don't know la. I guess I was just being over optimistic. It just drains my energy when I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall. Sometimes I still feel like I can never find anyone more perfect than you and I get a little lost once in a while but life is too precious to be wasted being glum and sour. I really believed in forever, until you tore my dream into little pieces by saying otherwise. Sigh.
-nIx- @ [[11:43 PM]]
June 05, 2009 ITS OFFICIAL....
NIX IS........
GET....
GETT.....
GETTI...
GETTIN....
GETTING.... (I'M SO IN LOVE!)
GOING TO MACAU FOR GAO TOU YU AND PORTUGUESE EGG TARTS!!! :D
My life is da bomb. Almost perfect ; and I know what it takes to complete it, but its so difficult to make it work out. All that aside. I can't wait!
-nIx- @ [[12:47 AM]]
June 04, 2009 For the past few days I've constantly been thinking what could have been done to make it work. Boo.
-nIx- @ [[4:07 PM]]
June 03, 2009 Randoms. Saying goodbye to 10 years of bonding with my long hair..
My take home souvenir!
Final haircut outcome
With touch up from my professional hairstylist Val! (I'm so gonna promote her to director stylist if she comes my house every morning to style my hair for me :X)
Finally...
FOOD FIT FOR 4!!!! WAHAHAHA.
-nIx- @ [[11:14 PM]]
Some changes are unexpectedly pleasant and surprising. :D
-nIx- @ [[12:24 AM]]
June 01, 2009 One minute after stepping in the house he nags nonstop. So fucked up!
-nIx- @ [[10:13 PM]]
I think I've been driving everyday for the whole of last week lol. Because I don't see you putting in as much effort as I am. No more car rides that easily anymore.Because I feel so much better not talking to a brick wall so I stopped the messages altogether. Plus no more long leaves and next break from work is 5days from now :(Show me that you're sincere to change and I'd give you back threefold. Season parking starts once again. :(But for now, I just want to live my life as normal as I can. And its already 1am I should get to sleep soon.I am not as affected as I was before ; I am much stronger. I am so sad the weekends are over. So short!!!But you're still always on my mind I am so looking forward to my next holiday LOL!